I’m Not Perfect, Will Never Be
I am not perfect and I am never going to be that perfect girl that you have always imagined to be with. Only today that I have actually come to realize I am not the girl people imagine me to be.
Have I gotten to a point where I want to change and become that perfect person people want me to be yes and I have failed, dismally?
I still go back to my habits that tick them off you know why because that is who I am. I am so comfortable in my skin and cannot imagine being that reflection you want to see in me.
I don’t like conversations that are left hanging or that will leave me with questions in my head. I don’t like people who are quick to judge before understanding.
I have my good and bad days. I have days where I want to light up a smoke, sometimes a blunt. Days I want to have a glass of wine on Monday, that is who I am and it does not make me any less of a human being.
You cannot judge me because you sin differently than I do. I love being me and love people who love me for being me.
I am a loud mouth and can say a lot when I am not being heard and this is where I usually fuck up but remember I am not perfect.
I walk too fast and sometimes don’t sit like a lady. I don’t like sharing my bed; sometimes want my space and silence.
I laugh loud and sometimes inappropriately but it is freeing and that’s who I am. I don’t like wearing a bra because it’s also freeing.
I have been told I drink too much for a girl, too independent but you know what I am the furthest thing from perfection.
What I don’t get are people who want to change and focus a lot on me forgetting they are human too and have their flaws they would not change for the world.
Focus on being the best version of you, people can be very disappointing. Don’t live life for others but yourself. Do what sets your soul on fire.
“I know that I’m not perfect and that I don’t claim to be, so before you point your fingers make sure your hands are clean.” Bob Marley
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