I longily watch you recite ’till death us do part’ as a doting bride and a head over heels , crazy about you , wil stick with you in days we have bacon and days we don’t because that’s what I am supposed to do. But you know I am not fooling you because this is a marriage of convenience. You wanted a wife to warm your bed, make you dinner and host your uptight snobbish friends that refuse to grow up and of course shut your mother up because she got tired of worrying about your dirty laundry. Of course you are not selfish but selfless because we both had our reasons for lying to everyone. As I look at the sobbing woman in the front row my heart is a little quieter because it’s every child’s mandate to make their parents proud no matter the means. I have never seen my mother sob except now , she didn’t cry when I graduated, bought a car or got promoted at work . She just said Congratulations and kept it moving but today on the worst day of my life she is sobbing and clutching her husband’s hand as if everything I have done before now was a rehersal. I am marrying Ben not because we are crazy about each other and can’t keep our hands off each other but because I am thirty five going sixty five according to my Tete so here we are. Ben is nothing to me except a carrier of something I need and yes I hear it too when I say it out loud it sounds horrible but it’s what it is. Who could have thought that someone that stayed up all night with romantic novels and dreamnt of lingering kisses would end up in a loveless marriage with a man she barely cares of. Now don’t get me wrong because this man is as hot as they come and I can’t possibly tell you if he has ripped abs because I absolutely have no idea because we don’t have a relationship that’s sinful as my grandmother would say . Is this our first kiss? Yep!? Am I reciting ‘ don’t have garlic breath’ , of course! If anything I do pray he kisses my thoughts to silence and may my toes curl and not forgetting the miraculous sound of the hummingbird. Okay I need to snap out of it because this is nothing but a marriage of convenience. I wonder what is going through his mind as he recites his vows maybe it’s something like ” How did I end up with a dorky nerd for a bride” or is he longing for the one that got away? I do in a weird way feel sorry for him because he lost the one woman that he loved but we can’t cry over spilled milk right!? I wonder whose death will tear us apart. Cry me a whole river if it’s mine but till that day I will care for this deeply scarred man for our future children or will I?
This is not based on a true story but something that reared it’s head in my brain and since it’s my Year of Yes I just said cool let me put you on paper
